Why Blog?

I have never blogged before. Sure, I had Xanga years ago and I was a slave to all things MySpace but those days are gone. I don't want to talk about what I had for lunch yesterday and I don't want to write a novel-length ranting rage about meaningless nuances in life.

I admit that I have briefly viewed only four of the blogs on this website, partially because I really don't know how to search or navigate around this place. Of those four blogs, three were written by current Olympians and one was written by a cook in Europe. All are people with a clear and set purpose. I'll tell you right now- I'm not one of those people. I'm just an average, every-day jeans and a t-shirt kinda girl with a meaningless day job but a lot of hope for the future. What I'm hoping for, I'm not sure. Of course I want the usual happiness and success. but how do I want to get there and what exactly is the definition of success, or even happiness? It is a dichotomy of utmost confusion and uncertainty for most, if not all, people. There are just too many variables that can't be lumped together to form one general consensus regarding the way of the world and being humans, the way we view the world changes constantly. A good day or a bad day, a new love or a heartache, making a friend or losing another, and the list goes on. Each moment we experience changes our view of the world, even if just slightly. This blog is nothing more than a collection of questions and experiences, some deep and others shallow, that have to at least some extent, brought about new questions in my mind that have, if even for a moment, changed the way I see things. Maybe someday I'll look back at this and learn something. Maybe these little lessons can be something more.